Honor.

So tonight is about Honor.

Honor yourself never lower yourself to the standards of an imperfect world! Never Do something for a man because he says I love you Anyone can love you not many can Respect and HONOR you!

Yes I am a little fired up tonight. Why do so many Girls Not Respect themselves I was even one that didn't respect myself I screwed up somethings but I never lowered myself to sleep with someone out of wedlock and I never will Because that is being like the world and being worldly NO never going to happen I and You and Everyone should Respect themselves Do Not Chase someone that is not worth it Ladies never do it Never lower yourself to that standard.

I was in a relationship not to long ago like 3 months ago he was not a Christian. He treated me less than dirt and I let him because he threatened he'd kill himself and slit his throat time and time again i fell for it because i didn't want him to hurt himself He ended up Sleeping with someone it broke my heart it felt like it shattered in my chest because I did care for him in some sick way he had manipulated me into. I never treated him less then a person but yet he did to me time and time again and after sleeping with someone and I pulled away he started threatening it worse saying he'd post a video of him slitting his wrists.... :( Sadly I used 2 years of my life in that situation. You never want to be in that spot its constant crying staying up everyday to 3am cause he'd complain if I left him for even time to sleep then he'd sleep all day and ditch on me and say it was my fault for keeping him up so late and i always thought everything was my fault. Even now I check my old mail and saw something that he said to me that he was taking advil so he wouldn't Feel anything because I ruined his life.

He'd constantly do this to me :( 1. He Constantly Checks In on You

If your sweetie's attentive and asks you about your life, that's fantastic. But if he constantly calls you and expects a full report on where you've been and who you've been with, then something more sinister's going on

3. He Won't Let You Talk to Other Guys

Don't stand for this form of relationship abuse. You're allowed to talk to anyone of any gender you want. If your sweetie is suspicious of something, he should have a mature conversation with you about it, but he's not allowed to control your behavior.

4. She Threatens to Hurt Herself

When someone tells you something like, "I'll kill myself if you break up with me," they're using fear and guilt to manipulate you. Any threat should be taken seriously, so speak to a parent or counselor about it. But you don't have to play along.

5. He Loses His Temper Quickly

Everyone gets mad sometimes, and that's okay. But if your sweetie snaps at you over the tiniest things and blames you for things that aren't your fault, then something's wrong (and it's not you). 

Abusive relationships are like being addicted a bad drug. You know it's bad for you but you have a really hard time escaping from it.

I was dealing with all of those. He told me doing things were okay others do it its okay. No no its not. I know now I am just i feel so hurt still I felt useless and unworthy his behavior took control of me. I never want to be in a spot where i feel i need a person like that to make me feel worth something.

I am being a little deep tonight maybe this will help someone out there I dont know but i do know this. I plan to walk Humbly with my Lord Jesus Christ I know his Holy Spirit dwells in me I know I love him with all my heart and Soul and strength. Respect yourself Ladies and Gentlemen that are going through this Please I Beg you Respect and Honor yourself you are worth it.