A few songs of the night.

Demon Hunter. My Heartstrings come undone > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_93IbHtE2is

Bullet for my Valentine. Tears dont fall > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWxqd90-XWI

Broken. By Amy Lee and Seether > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeI4Ft8P7ks

Cold By Crossfade > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QuzDghzyVjk

Creed. One last breath > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5vNJwR2vVOk

My own prison > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IP4G8_alAT4

anger

So I want to get this off my chest I am sure some of you are going through this... In my house it should be a time of unbelievable happyness and everything should be well and right. But lately all there is. Is anger and hurt/heartache tears. I feel this boiling rage and I feel like I am just going to loose it I am usually calm and never quick to anger but boy I am So very angry right now Its burning from deep inside I do not like this feeling and I know I shouldn't let this anger dwell...
 God I'm SOO Angry take it from my heart.

Demon Hunter. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlmXLK6o_CU

Netflix

Do any of you have Netflix because I have a few shows you should watch that is on there :)

The one guy Charlie is so smart. It's pretty intense show he solves cases with Math his brother  Don who is the main FBI special agent. All around its a very interesting show :)

Burn Notice, Bones, Hell on wheels, Breaking bad, Eureka and Longmire which i just watched it was pretty good but had some sexual content in it pretty much all the shows do though unfortunately that stuff is just in everything which i think is lame :P

Okay this show is really funny Psych just watch the first episode let it get into it about 5/10 minutes and you'll be hooked :) 

And another show you should totally watch is ( Drum roll!! )

It only has one season. but so far I like it just started it today cause I was bored after running around this morning I may be closing tonight but I am not sure I'll find out in about 15 minutes :)

;)

Kiss it all better > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nXPx8b4rgko

Fall > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJV47hqleD0

Too Beautiful > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JgBbYwaXUXw

Pardon me > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e4NttbSaQ7I

I wouldn't mind > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LX18lsdHMMY

Prove you wrong > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AMEre9gEs-U

=) Hey people :) hope your all having an amazing week!

Demi Lovato. For the love of a daughter > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K59KsIDlif8

Beyonce. Schoolin life. > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oAmnkPUFMHg

1+1 > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8U5gUKCQ8XY

Rihanna. >  > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVYNI6D8VIA

Emblem 3. > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9uoF_37kgiM

Curious > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_UTaR_nEJc

Reason > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bq_1gxLVeLE

Parachute. Forever and always > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G0pbW-fUWLI

Kiss me slowly > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F7RbBB-lT5o

She (for liz) > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gb1ylimfapA Love this song.

She is love > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NwrVYjJmNmo

Chad's Awesome song > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MfMHbZKeXnI

Sick Puppies. Riptide > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVti3acinqs

What are you looking for > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzsvliUOxh0 LOve this song :)

Anywhere but here > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XO_taCi1xJY

So what I lied > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LtAkdXX4pG4

Theory of a dead man. Not meant to be > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ibyIsQX2V_s

Sixx Am. This is gonna hurt >  > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RAw-EFuwC3A

life is beautiful > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjX2KYuAJcA

Lies of the beautiful > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r4ujSV5Y2oc

Random time :)

The Proposal. You should all watch this movie it was really good there's one part where the grandma and mom take Sandra out to lunch or a surprise something just skip its a bad scene Yeeee Be warned! >>  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hjNgADUZNHo

They do swear,,, Sh** Asian Moms say > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6HP2escR3qQ

Sh** Asian dads say > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5MJbZ4l4J8

Asian beating > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLP9dL5tG6M

Connor Franta. Random Swag > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dfDFJycR4QM

Random Swag 2 > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DP8KNAhyvdY

Random swag 3 > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bwqPCgjSepM

Random swag 4 > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5XcXRAWp70U

Things not to do when you like someone > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YpThnXVQYag

You deserve better > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gBjtQTsS5ng

Hawthorne Heights. This is who we are > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UgrMMGUA77c

Stuff/Music ;)

Starting over. 

We can all press replay on a movie but we can't in real life we go through things we wished never happened but if we learn from those things how can we not be better then before stronger braver fearless in the truest sense with our best friend by our side. 

Don't quit something you were born to start.

Stop running from the past embrace it deal with it and move on!

See those trials and realize your a better person now and you know how to never treat someone or something.

Nothing is worthless! No matter how it looks or how someone feels stop acting like its not your problem. 

Embrace Others and show them you care and will listen with an Open Heart.

Don't Judge others. James 4:11-12 11 Speak not evil of another, brethren. He that speaketh evil of his brother, and judgeth his brother, speaketh evil of the law, and judgeth the law: but if thou judge the law, thou art not a doer of the law, but a judge. 12 there is one lawgiver, who is able to save and destroy who art thou to judgest another?

Living is not meaningless. It never is life is exciting if you make it that way its all how you look at the world. Some of the world is corrupt. But as it says in the Bible in later days Kingdom will be against Kingdom brother against brother and neighbor against neighbor. 

Life's gonna be Cray Cray :-P

Chainsaw > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VSgT-odLFjQ

Supersonic > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3yEy7QRo4bw

Drama Queen > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCfOjYaaSQ0

Dang girl > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIBcIv5vcXA

Zombie > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvKqcBvFlxg

Cray Button > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uayvcVYNfQI

Cray Button. Ft Lecrea :) > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_zP4Wfvjyg Love this version way more!! :)

Radiator > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sHh5iDfkYvE

Love Addict > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6I3A0gJuhQ

Wobble > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AFOx2kcu2uE

Fever > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3q5IUcgbOXs

I Love Love Family Force 5!!! :)

Evans Blue. This Time it's different. > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ut3LylmU89Y

Beg > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CW6-drb72CQ

Erase my scars > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OV2o2pwwbpI Love this song <3 ;)

Ah

I just realized something Connor Franta looks a lot like my ex O.o

Creepy cray cray oh well. I still love Connor :)

How to deal with hate online. > > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6gcIVpGNJk0&list=UUudeRz9YntRrmKBSqnHyKGQ

AAH and does anyone else think JC. Cayley looks like Eli manning?

You can tell the difference but just saying :)

So Side note aaaaaaaah I'm so freakin bored its 11:45pm I should be sleeping but i am just not tired :-P And my minds running :) To many good idea's on my book to sleep yay creative mind :) 

Just watch all of Connor Franta and Jc and Rick Dillon lol :) Have fun!!

Beauty. 

If beauty is skin and outlook why do we all strive to be beautiful or think were not. I know I do a lot I always think I am ugly or fat and I'm 5'4 120 pounds. so I am not fat everyone I know says I am so skinny or fit one person said I needed to gain a little weight. but yeah I wanted to do a poem on this so here we go :)

Beauty is nothing Beauty is meaningless If you want Beauty make yourself Beautiful inside and it will shine outwards Beauty is what every person wants and strives for to be that perfect something. to be flawless like society wants we as Christians believers were meant to be different and not of this world. So I don't wish to harm you but Beauty isn't worth your soul or causing danger to yourself because I know you can be the most beautiful person ever just by being a better you. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder loving Beauty is like loving money empty and hollow you may lust after it. but it'll never be 

 ( Love )

I'll Admit it to you guys I hide behind names and pen names. I get extremely nervous when people read what I write But I am starting to come out of that shell a little :) 

I hope you all have a blessed night :) .... James 4:12

Why?

Why do I love these things. :)

Boyfriend. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPhfnAQGB0E

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=utJrJuBQ244

2ne1. Clap your hands > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZTw-UM5Jy4E

Native American Music > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fMNMWZM1Jp8

Ah Nee Mah > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AZ32CbC_PBk

Earth Drum > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMVQZQcioYI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igmpvrRQIkI

Have an epic day :)

:-P

So it's been crazy for me lately. with job and now getting hired at Harris teeter I have to still get a picture ID for that but hopefully i'll have it this Monday. Then I meet at the church at 1 to talk to pastor Morris about why I want to get baptized I have church tomorrow and possibly closing at work. :) Hopefully things slow down soon I'm tired.

Fifth Harmony. Miss Movin on > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qti2X20w_gA

Will. I am ft justin bieber. That power > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGIgXP9SvB8

2ne1. Clap your hands. Love this song even though you can't understand them lol > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZTw-UM5Jy4E

Connor Franta. I am flawless. he does swear :P > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLTqkHVTW8o&feature=em-subs_digest

I'm sorry but I'm walking away > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usb20KeTV04

Frankie J. I promise you > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBOGGmHmIgI

J. Rice Thank you for the broken heart > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aIazwupJ2nk

So side note ladies most importantly to you. I am 19 I've never kissed a guy I've been in a serious relationship just one and he showed me how someone you thought could never hurt you could cut you the deepest. He chose someone's Bed over a faithful person he chose to lie and then scream and hurt me worse when I found out. He had other issues I thought I could help him anything I did never helped him he just used it against me to hold me in that relationship so he could have some kind of control over me If someone says YOU love me you have to stay in this relationship or I'll kill myself or I slept with that person because You wouldn't so it's your fault... Ladies don't fall for that It's not your fault and it's not by accident he did what he did or she If some of you guys have been through this. I felt like so long it was my fault I always blamed myself and I do today thinking something wasnt right with myself why everyone i knew would chose others instead of me I always thought i was a burden or hurt everything i touched and maybe I do but I know i dont deserve what he did and neither do any of you.

Sterling Knight. Hero. > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_uo1zDJ7JPU

Don't wake Aislin. Mighty to save > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Bcc9Cb90_Q

Riddick

Okay so the first movie is a little bit more of a scary monsters it's okay to learn about the characters and gets you sunk in a little to watch more.

Chronicles of Riddick was amazing. I really liked it :) so I can't wait to see the newest one this friday. 

Riddick. Trailer > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDxDEjDMreA

It is scary so I warn you on that and they do swear in the first two movies there is one part in the second one where the bad lady and her husband are talking then start doing something you may want to fast foreword it doesnt get any worse then kissing but just the way it is in that one you may want to fast foreword it. and the Jail scene with Kiera you may want to fast foreword when the one guy checks her. Just warning everyone. :) I always fast foreword through that stuff so incase you all want to do the same thing there's your warning :)

Bands :)

                                                           Some cool bands :)

Same old same old > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFdhftuO0ek

Eavesdrop > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBS502kFzPE

Dust to dust > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1Dgw6GHfrg

the one that got away > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dunq3wzZw9I

Tell mama > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZ36DfFm93g

Kingdom come > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mh0di7Dh7A

Poison and wine > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBicqqc_UWg

20 years > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wA1ezjJNarQ

Tip of my tongue > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-RtrpwIME0

Falling > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8qdk3iPFYxg

Go > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gbBH09oYHyk

Girl with the red balloon > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2HF1NST1Vs

My fathers father > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-9OfyxwVeqY

From this valley > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=btcGAAahSTs

Barton Hollow > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ExAM8D7cfbI

Dance me to the end of love > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y9s4y9eK-Hg

Forget me not > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWXrTi8odJE

Kat Deluna. Whine up > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rsZlXmw21Z0

Run the show > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_YNuBUItOw

Shakira. Hips dont lie > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qqeXWSjXmD0

Rihanna. Stay > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8t7fLDtgtuE

Justin Timberlake. Mirror > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZ6_2NZ4gdk

Bruno mars. It will rain > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xp7_eM2GuQI

Jason Derulo. Breathing > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-nDetMcMt8

Coldplay. Ft Rihanna. Princess of china > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1sxa5rUo2E

Rapture Ruckus. Freight train > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3bpShKY6uzw Love this song soooo much <3

Rockin > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYazYBN43-8

Get Ready > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JJ_t6CywY-s aww man this song rocks to :)

We as romans. fade away > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MiJegJuabD0

I survive > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xO7UhLkb6Kw

A moment > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EW-ZfPGJlrg

Undertow > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VmfWGp8jank

Stronger > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CD0Y7J6dR8M

Runaway > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hv8cSAu-Zi0

Adrenaline > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=624Q6brOUfI

Come on courage > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_QPCL0MIGw

Anger.

There's this cold anger inside of me lately. My sister is so happy in love but scared to tell our parents thing is she really loves this guy and he really loves her and he is very nice. I just feel confused and angry its burning in my stomach and I just can't help it but hate this one guy I know I shouldnt but I can't get over this feeling of betrayal. I mean am I really bad? He would say things like hoping if we got married I would have a Gay son so that i would learn to love and understand them or that Abortion should be allowed and it is a good thing he said i shouldnt be so Naive and that we created it so we wouldnt have all these kids we didn't need like they were all burdens... I dont know my heart bleeds whenever i think about it and lately thats all I am thinking about. Kids are a blessing no doubt in my mind. When someone you care about and have known for a year tells you things like that you get into fights and over and over again he would say when i was crying like good i'm glad it hurts... then would say he never meant it a day later so i would forgive him.... which i stupidly would. I want a man in my life i know i do I want a good one not one's with suicide issues but I don't feel i deserve one anymore.

anyone feel that way? :-P

The Civil war. One that got away > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nOWGp1zhcVE </3 

Birdy. Just a game > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gQVlZ-q7xHs

Anger lays in wake in our hearts from heart betrayal. Why some chose to make us angry and others thrive off it some cause pain without care some wish to break the most beautiful souls don't give the enemy that chance to destroy you learn a lesson from the hurt the angry betrayal and the feeling like you are worthless you never are the person that made you feel that way deserves your pity but he or she does not deserve the satisfation of knowing that they won! Don't let them win rebuild your walls around your heart protect yourself and see the value in yourself see the shining Love that God has for your wounds let him mend your broken heart. Anger doesn't control you but it can if you let it.

The Outcasts

So We as humans soon as we decide to follow Jesus Christ we are the outcasts :) and it's all right with me.

Rapture Ruckus. In Crowd > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Em1AvbZcy2g

Trip lee. Heart problem > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdQUNZQqrss

I'm not sure what all to say today :) I'm sure I'll have more exciting things to say later in the week :)

The Outcasts.

Were the outcasts of the world we walk live humbly like no one else we become the outcasts of the nation soon as we decide to take that step of faith our lives don't belong to the world but we live for our Heavenly father anything to be gained on earth is not worth it really in the long run so we are the outcasts :)

James 4:12

There is one lawgiver, who is able to save and to destroy: who art thou that judgest another?

I love that verse its another one I want to memorize :) 

Sometimes I am not good at remembering verses but I am trying to get better. I hope all of your day was good sorry I haven't really posted the last few days I am sick kind of out of it :( but anyway I'll be back to it I wont promise every day because of other obligations. :)

Dont let someone do that and say that... it's not true if they loved you they would never break your heart and say they still love you and will change give them a second chance or use your Faith in God and say doesnt he forgive worse things so you should be like God and forgive me. Be strong and let that person that hurt you go for good.

I have no words to express this deep scar on my heart I ran from you. You showed me how crazy that was I never wanted to hurt you and myself Truly I should love you first with a love so crazy people would never understand. You have been there through everything with me you kept me going when i broke into a thousand pieces you help me be brave and not let others see my pain. no one knows the pain that man left on me. You do you know it all!! you see it even if I hide it you see this scar in my heart and you heal it with your love You've always given me my strength your my best friend. You say I am enough because you made me and we will hold on and never surrender we will be strong and never break because we will fight for the King of forever our Lord and Savior.

Anthem lights. Fight forever > > http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0yhM1WbFlU