There's this cold anger inside of me lately. My sister is so happy in love but scared to tell our parents thing is she really loves this guy and he really loves her and he is very nice. I just feel confused and angry its burning in my stomach and I just can't help it but hate this one guy I know I shouldnt but I can't get over this feeling of betrayal. I mean am I really bad? He would say things like hoping if we got married I would have a Gay son so that i would learn to love and understand them or that Abortion should be allowed and it is a good thing he said i shouldnt be so Naive and that we created it so we wouldnt have all these kids we didn't need like they were all burdens... I dont know my heart bleeds whenever i think about it and lately thats all I am thinking about. Kids are a blessing no doubt in my mind. When someone you care about and have known for a year tells you things like that you get into fights and over and over again he would say when i was crying like good i'm glad it hurts... then would say he never meant it a day later so i would forgive him.... which i stupidly would. I want a man in my life i know i do I want a good one not one's with suicide issues but I don't feel i deserve one anymore.
anyone feel that way? :-P
Anger lays in wake in our hearts from heart betrayal. Why some chose to make us angry and others thrive off it some cause pain without care some wish to break the most beautiful souls don't give the enemy that chance to destroy you learn a lesson from the hurt the angry betrayal and the feeling like you are worthless you never are the person that made you feel that way deserves your pity but he or she does not deserve the satisfation of knowing that they won! Don't let them win rebuild your walls around your heart protect yourself and see the value in yourself see the shining Love that God has for your wounds let him mend your broken heart. Anger doesn't control you but it can if you let it.
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